As a starter to this post…The first part is copied from my other blog. My blog that only consists of spiritual topics. But as I was writing it, I decided I wanted to add more and so I brought it over to this blog. ( I know, how many blogs can one girl have? Apparently not enough). Feel free to check out my spiritual blog at A Little Drop of Heaven .
“Find the compensatory blessings in your life when, in the wisdom of the Lord, He deprives you of something you very much want. To the sightless or hearing impaired, He sharpens the other senses. To the ill, He gives patience, understanding, and increased appreciation for others’ kindness. With the loss of a dear one, He deepens the bonds of love, enriches memories, and kindles hope in a future reunion. You will discover compensatory blessings when you willingly accept the will of the Lord and exercise faith in Him.” – Elder Richard G. Scott
I read this quote yesterday and I thought to myself, wow this is great. There are things in this life that I want for myself. I would like a boyfriend. Someone to talk to everyday. Someone to do things with on the weekends. Someone to love. I want to be married. I want to have children. I want to be a stay at home mom and watch my children grow. And while these are things that I may feel “deprived” of right now, I know that one day I will have them. But for now I need to look for those wonderful blessings that I do have.
Things have been rough lately. I don’t think I told you this but we just found out that the private school we work for is closing this particular campus that I work at. Which means I will be out of a job come June. Normally a person would be somewhat okay because they have a few months to find a job, however this brunette is stressed. Why? Because I am lost. I am a 24 year old woman with a BS in Child Development who is now wondering what she wants to do with her life because she doesn’t know if she even wants to continue working in a school. But what would this girl do if she doesn’t work in a school? That is a great question that I don’t know the answer to. See my dilemma? So I am currently trying to job hunt online to see if anything sticks out to me that I would like doing. So far…I have nothing. And remember folks…I am a worrier. A panicker. A planner. A person that stresses over things I can’t even control. I’m a virgo – if that means anything. So you can imagine how this feels.
On top of my job hunt, I recently told a guy that I liked him which I am realizing was a mistake and never should have said anything. But then again, why should I be upset? If you like someone then so what. Why can’t you be free to express how you feel? I really shouldn’t beat myself up over it because I have made so many mistakes in my life I can’t even count them. But I am now trying to pick up all those pieces to the puzzle I just broke. Can two people remain friends when they both know that one likes them? I don’t know…it’s hard. On the one hand I don’t want to lose this person as a friend because they are a great person. But on the other hand, sticking around means having to deal with the pain of knowing they don’t feel the same way. I think what I need to do is find a new hobby. Or a new guy. I guess whichever comes first haha. Maybe both? Maybe my new hobby will have to be to find a new guy haha. Just kidding. What a terrible hobby. Maybe I just need to focus on myself for a bit. Get my nails done. Go do things. Have adventures. Meet new people. Okay maybe not that last one. I hate meeting new people. I like having more friends, but I hate having to put in the work in the beginning to socialize with everyone just to meet people. That is what happens when you are an introvert.
Anyway, so with work not going so great, dating life still in the toilet, struggling with my work in the church, and not having much motivation to do work for my extra online classes, life can seem pretty hard. BUT, after reading this quote and after hearing a few messages at church…I want to be better at recognizing the blessings in my daily life. Especially on those days that seem hard. So here are a few blessings I have recognized lately.
- I got some guidance from my Bishop at church.
- I was able to finish my homework on time.
- I heard some really great messages at church that applied to me.
- Some parents posted on facebook some reasons why they appreciated me.
- I got some extra money this weekend babysitting.
- My brother came down to visit for a few days.
Those are to list a few. So I mean apart from these not so good things, God is blessing me daily with small tender mercies that I need to appreciate. God is good. God knows me. He knows what I need and when I need it. Have faith. Trust in Him and things will work out! Let’s see what these next few months bring as a whole new world is opening up for me! 🙂