Okay you guys… it’s May which means it’s almost June which means I’m almost out of a job and I have NO plans!!!
I realized today as I was getting ready for bed that June 15th is my last day of work and I have no idea what will happen after.
Is that scary to anyone else?? It is for me!
Well obviously it’s not scary for you. Why would you care? It doesn’t affect you, but let’s just pretend for my sake that you are worried too.
So, I’m not saying that I haven’t tried looking for a job. Because I have.
I’ve been on LinkedIn, indeed, monster. I’ve looked on Facebook pages, and asked people.
I’ve thought about moving to Texas and even all the way to Tennessee. Yeah…. that’s how much I have no idea what is going on. I’m looking everywhere!
Now why Texas and Tennessee? I have a brother in Texas and I have a sister that just moved to Tennessee and it’s nice to be close to family.
I think it would be amazing to have my own place. I’m going to be 25 in August and while I love living at home rent free, I like the feeling of feeling like an adult.
So, do I stay at home where I can save money and find a job here? Or do I move out of state and get a job and my own apartment (Everyone knows I can’t afford to live in CA – so if I want an apartment it has to be somewhere else).
Unless I win the lottery… then I could live anywhere I want. And not work. I could live with that.
I don’t know what kind of a job I want either so I have literally been looking at everything available.
And nothing has really POPPED out at me screaming TAKE ME!
I don’t know which is worse. Being stressed at my job, or stressing over finding a new one… I mean my dream job would be a job where I had my own hours and schedule.
A job that would allow me to take vacations, and enjoy life. Something that I actually enjoyed. But I have no idea what that is.
And that is selfish.
Most jobs have a set schedule like 8-5. So finding one that is flexible is extremely hard. So I don’t even bother looking for one like that.
I have to find something though. Or I’m going to start getting really anxious.
If June 15th comes around and I have no job… I’m toast.
You might as well spread some jelly on me and eat me because I will be totally toasted.
I look around and see all these people doing things they love and they seem to have everything figured out.
People doing photography and making a business out of it.
People selling products from home.
Enjoying their life in whatever job they have.
Even being a stay at home mom.
It’s like … did I miss a class in school where they teach you … no, TELL you what to do in life?
Because if so, I definitely missed that class.
Which would explain my predicament.
Can I just blame it all on my absence from the class?
I’ve taken career tests – yes the one you actually pay for (boo).
I’ve looked up random apartments in different areas.
I’ve looked at job postings in different areas.
I’m in different groups on Facebook where they post jobs.
So why is nothing happening?
Why can’t I just decide?
Why can’t I just say, “yeah that sounds good. I’ll do that. Here, take my resume”.
Why is everything a no?
Am I being too picky?
Am I not looking hard enough?
Am I not looking correctly?
And why do a lot of jobs always require experience?
Like sometimes we have to start somewhere which means we will have NO experience.
If every job required experience, we would not have jobs. So finding something new to do, is almost impossible because they want experience which I don’t have.
You guys… I’m almost 25.
A lot of people my age have an apartment, a boyfriend or a spouse. The have kids, a good job.
My friends have been sending me wedding invitations, baby shower invitations, pictures of their new home, etc.
And I’m happy for them!
But then there is me.
I’m reminded that I am not moving. Not progressing.
Living at home.
Have I ranted enough yet? Have I killed your day?
Maybe I’m looking for the wrong thing.
Maybe because I’m expecting this big AH-HA moment for something to stick out to me, I’m missing my actual ah-ha moment of what I should do.
I don’t know.
Life is complicated ya’ll.
If any of you have figured out life, please let me know.
Stick around to see if I make it out alive or if I end up as toast when June 15th comes around.
And please comment below!
What job do you have? What do you enjoy about it? How did you find it?
Do you feel stuck in life too? Are you trying to find the next thing for you?