So this past Saturday I had the opportunity to visit one of my brothers in Temecula and watch his 4 children while they celebrated their 15th wedding anniversary! (Congrats brother!).
Anyway, while I was there I was sitting at the table with my two nieces talking about random stuff. We got on the topic of how the younger one who I believe is 6 (correct me if I’m wrong J), loves scary stuff. Even when she was 3 she would make up stories about zombies and stuff.
Anyway, we sat down with her older sister and we thought she was going to tell us a scary story. Anyway, the little one says sometimes she even scares herself and then she called me a teenager. The older one told her no, that I was twenty something. The little one then says, “Then what kind of person is she?!” She starts to say I am not an adult because I am not fully grown. Haha. Which okay, I will admit I am 5’5 so not super tall. haha! But I am fully grown. So …
What Kind of Person Am I?
Man, that is such a good question. I feel we (well me and those who are also around my age haha) are at that age where everything is just kind of confusing. It can be fun, but you’re still trying to figure everything out. You’re an adult, but you also don’t feel quite like a “fully grown adult” as my niece calls it. Haha.
I recently had a conversation with a friend who told me that if there are things I want to change, or things I want to do, then I need to act instead of be acted upon. In other words I need to do something about it. I shouldn’t let others determine how I feel, or decide what I do with my life. He told me, “I’ll pray for you, but … you have to act on your circumstances. Act, instead of be acted upon”. At first I was upset and thought well fine I don’t need you to pray for me then. I don’t want your prayers. I don’t wan’t your help if you’re going to be like that. And then I laughed because in The Book of Mormon it says something similar. I got so offended at first and upset and hardened my heart. But often times when we hear something that is true, it hurts.
1 And now it came to pass that after I, Nephi, had made an end of speaking to my brethren, behold they said unto me: Thou hast declared unto us hard things, more than we are able to bear. (sound familiar…I felt like this).
2 And it came to pass that I said unto them that I knew that I had spoken hard things against the wicked, according to the truth; and the righteous have I justified, and testified that they should be lifted up at the last day; wherefore, the guilty taketh the truth to be hard, for it cutteth them to the very center. (what he said was true. I needed to step it up, and it hit me right in the heart).
3 And now my brethren, if ye were righteous and were willing to hearken to the truth, and give heed unto it, that ye might walk uprightly before God, then ye would not murmur because of the truth, and say: Thou speakest hard things against us.
4 And it came to pass that I, Nephi, did exhort my brethren, with all diligence, to keep the commandments of the Lord.
5 And it came to pass that they did humble themselves before the Lord; insomuch that I had joy and great hopes of them, that they would walk in the paths of righteousness. (I need to humble myself and not get offended.)
-1 Nephi 16:1-5 (Parentheses are my thoughts)
I need to act and not be acted upon by others.
I had heard this many times, and sometimes even from my own mouth, but this time it hit me. I told him it was like a slap in the face (for a good reason). Sometimes as hard as it can be, we need that person in our life who helps guides us to do good and be better. I can definitely thank God for putting those special people in my life. Sometimes we need those reminders that we are important, special, amazing, and awesome (as he called me, not to brag or anything) but that there is always room for improvement (as my friend pointed out).
I can be whatever person I want to be.
If I want to be an amazing athlete, then I need to train. (This will never happen because I hate working out).
If I want to be a famous actress then I need to take acting classes and work hard. (This will also never happen because I don’t want that life).
If I want to be healthier, be more spiritual, more loving, more service oriented, then I need to just to do it. I need to eat better, work out more, pray harder, ponder on the scriptures, express my love and serve others more. (This I do want).
I read a post from Zach’s blog which I always enjoy reading from. His blog is titled Heaven’s White Noise. Go check it out!
Anyway, he recently posted one titled Why Worry? and there was something that he said that I really loved!!!
“I don’t want to be troubled or afraid… It’s not fun. And Christ controls the bigger picture. So knowing He’s in control, I guess I have two options… (1) I can worry, and things will work out, or (2) I can not worry, and things will work out. One of those sounds a lot better.”
Things Will Work Out!
It’s true! If we trust in God, things will work out. Not when we want them, but when He sees fit. So like Zach said, we can either worry about everything in the meantime, or we can relax and trust in God. Either way, things will eventually work out.
Now I am not saying that we have to be positive and calm 24/7. That is unreal. But, we can remind ourselves when we do worry that it isn’t going to help.
“Why worry? If you’ve done the very best you can, worrying won’t make it any better” – Walt Disney
Anyways, I guess what I am trying to get at is that life can be confusing and sometimes we may ask ourselves “what kind of person am I?” or where am I in life? With life always changing, it can be hard not to worry.
But with a steadfast faith in Christ, things will work out.
Below I have attached the audio to the story and the conversation with my two nieces. In case you want to hear something weird.