So, I know I already posted this picture from my last blog post … but I have to post it again because I am literally obsessed!!!
I don’t know why I love this picture so much, but I do!!! And I know you may think it is just an ordinary picture, but there is something about it that I just admire!
I struggle with my self image. I struggle with accepting the way I look, and seeing myself as a beautiful woman. That being said I don’t like pictures of myself. When I take a picture I usually have to take lots before I find one that I like. I don’t like videos of myself, photos, or listening to my voice.
And part of it has to do with things people have said about me. Or the way that society portrays how we should look, and so I feel that I don’t fit that “standard”. Society says we have to be a certain size to be beautiful – and sometimes I give into that. I let that get to my head. And then certain things in my life or the lack of things have just made me have low self esteem.
But when I saw this picture … I don’t know.
Lately I haven’t been comfortable with myself, but when I saw this picture that Jake took I immediately fell in love with the picture! Like I was seeing myself as beautiful. I was seeing myself as the true daughter of God that I am.
The whole time I was on the date, I forgot about my lack of confidence. I didn’t think about the things I wanted to change about myself. I look at this picture and I feel pure joy. I don’t even know how to explain it. Like I imagine this is how Heavenly Father sees me. And I just got a glimpse of that tonight.
I may not be a size 6, but I am beautiful and I need to remember that. And if I ever forget that, I have this picture to remind me!
Have you ever had an ah-hah moment where you realized how important you are?