So, as many of you know I have been a lazy butt recently as I quit my job and haven’t been working since. It has felt like a drought. Honestly, I was starting to think I wouldn’t work again.
Going into 2019 I had decided that I wanted to work on myself. Which I know may sound selfish, but there is a lot that I can improve on (one being my weight, which I will talk about tomorrow).
That being said, I wanted to find a part time job so that I would have time to actually work out still. I have been really good this week and I have been on the treadmill everyday which is a HUGE accomplishment for me. I know myself, and I know my weaknesses, and I know that when I was previously working full time from 9-6, I had NO energy or willpower to do anything after work. And I NEED to lose the weight, so I NEED to work out.
So as selfish as it may be, I know that working part time would be better so that I actually have the time and motivation to work out. I know that working full time would be better because that would mean more money, but right now the BEST solution for me is something part time.
Luckily for me I had saved a good amount and so I have had money to pay my bills. But I am noticing my account getting smaller and smaller, and so the drought of having no job was becoming even more real.
Well last night God decided to crack a window. Little did I know, that the crack would soon turn into a giant hole. So I am on so many websites and so many different platforms to try and find a job. Last night I was contacted by someone who was interested in hiring someone for after school care for their 2 children. I had that interview today actually, and what is really nice is that they are also members of my church (but I didn’t know them until today).
So I thought to myself, wow this is such a blessing. Whether I actually get this part time job or not, just the fact that someone actually reached out to me after months of being on this site, was a HUGE blessing. And the hours would make it so I could still sleep in, work out in the morning, plan my meals, and still do my painting if I wanted to.
Well then today, I get accepted for ANOTHER side job making about $50 extra a week by helping out on LinkedIn. Do you see the crack in the window getting bigger?
Then the window broke and the flood began when this afternoon I get a text from a mom that I used to help nanny for. She explained to me that her new nanny is going on vacation until March and was wondering if I would like to help out in the mornings like I used to.
Crack, crash, flood!
I was immediately taken back and overwhelmed by all that was happening.
This past year I have felt like God has stepped back a bit and has tested my patience.
I am a person that does not really like to make decisions. It is very hard for me, especially when it comes to big decisions like choosing a job. And for the past year I have felt like God would step back and let me be in control of things – which was extremely scary for me.
Back when I was working for Leport and the school was closing, I had NO idea what I was going to do. And it was scary. It wasn’t until the VERY last day of work when a parent asked if I could nanny for her daughter who was in my class until she started her new school a couple months later. That to me was a HUGE blessing, but it didn’t come until the very end. I had to have so much patience, and trust that things would just work out.
After I got that job, I then got 2 other jobs after that which was a miracle! Out of the blue, and both part time jobs whose hours worked out perfectly.
You see, it started with a crack and then then BAM.
Fast forward to today, where things have been pretty dry lately. And then all of a sudden what feels like a flood. Now, I know some of you may be thinking, big deal. Those are nothing too huge. Nothing too major. But for me they are. It shows me that God has not forgotten about me. It shows me that if I hold on and keep doing the right things and living the best I can, that God will provide.
I know that sometimes we are required to walk through what may seem like a desert or a drought, hills and mountains, holes and ditches, but I know that if we just keep walking, we will eventually make it to that beautiful promised land that God has for us.
And the thing is, that even when we are walking through those droughts, or trudging up those mountains, or climbing out of a ditch, there are small blessings found there too.
We just need to open our spiritual eyes.
9. But as it is written, Eye hath not seen, nor ear heard, neither have entered into the heart of man, the things which God hath prepared for them that love him.
10. But God hath revealed them unto us by his Spirit: for the Spirit searcheth all things, yea, the deep things of God.
11. For what man knoweth the things of a man, save the spirit of man which is in him? even so the things of God knoweth no man, but the Spirit of God.
1 Corinthians 2:9-11